This is the place where a featured column of mine appears weekly. ~chuckles~ as you might have guessed from the title.
update
So I figure I should update since it's March man... well I have my
daughter back... Still steadily pounding away at the grindstone at
work aside from being perpetually broke, I am happy... I went down to
Montgomery to pick her up and spent some time with my husband... The mood I'm
in I can only blame on myself... I have nothing to distract me when not at
work or caring for Terryn and my mind is twisted like a pretzel it makes
writing very hard for me right now... But it does make me feel better when I do,
so I keep trying, I fail more often then not,
but occasionally something is leaking out, I keep trying to work on the site,
but it's always the last thing on the list.
I was recently offered a modeling
contract that sadly I had to turn down for practical reasons,
as I haven't found what I ultimately want to persue as my career yet.
If I end up working with the police department or ultimately end up as a
journalist there are certain things I wouldn't want to stop me from being
able to persue that. I hope it's something I don't
look back on and regret some day. It's flattering for people to think I'm
attractive and for someone to want to pay me money for my image. But I wish
someone would come upon my website and give me an opertunity like that
for my writing. One of the big deciding factors on saying no to the contract
is they would be able to make money off anything I wrote, which means they
could promote my tiny website, I would probably get thousands of hits every
day, which would help give me some feed back on the things I write I'm sure.
But they wouldn't have to consult me if they decided to honest to gods publish
my work and market it for their site... Basicly the contract specified that
they could market anything I did on the internet even if it was copyrighted
to me or not... They could use my name, likeness or catch phrases,
without consulting me. I don't delude myself into thinking many people
read what I write, but I think it should mean something that I wasn't
willing to sell my writing along with the image of my face and body. I think
it would of been a different story if they had offered to pay me for the other
things they wanted to use besides my face. It could of helped jump start a career
in this field, in which case I wouldn't of minded selling my image with it... But
they can't pay for the image and not the intellectual property, and use the intellectual property.
Maybe it was a mistake to say no, all I can do is be true to myself.
This is where my week finds me.
